Monthly Archives: January 2008

A walk by the sea (58)

*SIIIIIGH*
I believe, this was the deepest she could have gone.
If she went any further, she would not be alive now!!!
I know you’re all impatient to see how the story will go, but I needed to write this chapter. Short but important one.
I won’t say enjoy… but endure! Stuff to happen shortly, promise!
*hug* read more »

Avalanche (29)

It was late, and it was dark. And it was lonely in the flat, her only possession. Past midnight, tossing sleeplessly on her crumpled sheet. read more »

Nem értem

Írni kéne valamit de a döbbenettől nem jönnek a szavak.
Huszonnyolc évesen?
Persze, nem értem, miért lepődöm meg… láttuk, nem egyszer, milyen átélést, szenvedélyt vitt a színészi játékába.
Utolsó elkészült szerepe a Chris Nolan rendezésű “Batman: A Sötét Lovag” c. film Jokere; azt mondják, félelmetesen játssza el a tébolyt.
Amiben én utoljára láttam, a 2006-os “Candy”… kábítószerfüggőt alakított benne.
A sors fintora, hogy az élet megrendezte önmagát, beváltotta a jóslatot, befejezte, ami a filmben nem történik meg: ott kegyelmet kapott, az élettől nem.
Bevégeztetett.

Adalék pár napra rá (25-én): nem kábítószer vitte el… hanem valószínűleg az altató, amit a Joker eljátszása utáni hatalmas nyugtalanság miatt írtak fel neki. Véletlenül többet vett be…
A színész szent foglalkozás, soha nem szabadna elfelejtenünk, micsoda munka, gyötrődés, aggódás rejlik egy-egy szerep megformálása mögött… Aki beleéli magát, aki “megéli” a szerepét, annak nehéz visszatérnie a “valós” életbe. Heath-nek nem sikerült…

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I should be writing something but I can hardly think from the shock.
At hardly twenty-eight?
Of course, why am I surprised: we saw what passion he put into his acting.
His last finished role is the Joker of Chris Nolan’s “Batman: The Dark Knight”. They say he plays madness like it would be his first skin.
The last movie I saw him in was “Candy” from 2006, in the role of a drug addict.
As irony would have it, life directed itself, fulfilling the prophecy, finishing what never happened in the movie: he was spared there, but he was not spared in life.
It is finished.

Addition after a few days (January 25): It wasn’t drugs… but sleeping pills that he got prescribed for the endless anxiety and insomnia bothering him after playing the role of the Joker. He took more than was advised, by mistake…
Being an actor is a sacred profession, and we should never forget what toil and effort lies behind playing a role… That who “lives” his role is sometimes unable to return to real life afterwards. Heath didn’t make it…

Heath Ledger, 1979-2008.

Lost and found (9)

The next Monday there was an unexpected rush of December sunshine that made the world look a much happier place than it actually was. read more »

A walk by the sea (57)

Dinner was consumed in a profound silence broken only by cutlery meeting plate, food being masticated slowly, and the funny, but universally accepted noise of wine trickling down human throats. read more »

Macskaalom

Mit tegyek, szeretem a macskákat. Sőt, odavagyok értük. Meglátok egy kis, vagy nagyobb, vagy hatalmas puha, nyávogó szőrgombolyagot és átmegyek tütyümütyübe. read more »

A walk by the sea (56)

It came as it always did, uninvited yet expected, the clear start of a new day, a clean sheet to veil the dark events that lay behind him. His eyelashes were sticking his eyes shut, and he had no intention of opening them: why get up? read more »

At first sight (7)

The air was mellow and lights flickered all around him, making him alert and eager to see the unseen. He was almost happy Chris was back in the hotel: it felt right to be alone, though he didn’t exactly know why. He walked at a slow pace, gazing at the buildings, taking in the details, smelling in the fumes of cars, the tepid warmth lingering after a stifling summer day, and wild whiffs of striking perfume at odd moments, whenever a lady of the night went past him. read more »

A walk by the sea (51-55)

51.

He saw her sitting at her desk when he stepped out of the elevator. In her white top and a sophisticated bun on top of her head, her long-nailed fingers holding a receiver, her lips parted in talking. She was a sight to behold and he stood for a few moments, until she finished the call, and watched her, a step further from the elevator to keep it from opening and closing automatically. A tress of her hair fell lazily from the tight bun and floated next to her ear. Her nose seemed pointy and so did her chin. Those full lips moving quickly, from a smile into a professional pucker, back into a smile and an understanding squeeze. She could be anyone, really, only using her lips. read more »

Happy birthday, Gee!

“Everybody’s Changing”

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don’t see how you can
You’re aching, you’re breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody’s changing
And I don’t know why

So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same

You’re gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I’m
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody’s changing
And I don’t feel the same

Korunk egyik zsenije

Nem hittem volna, hogy valaha is szeretni, sőt, tisztelni és csodálni fogom Robbie Williams-t, az egykor nyálbanda pimasz énekesét. De mint sok más csoda, ez is megtörtént velem.

Emlékszem a legelső dalára, az Angels-re- borzasztóan erőltetettnek tartottam, és a fickó arca, meg hangja is idegesített, nem értettem, miért istenítik… a Let me entertain you csak ezután következett az én időszámításomban, és a Rock DJ körül már komolyan kezdtem odafigyelni rá. read more »

Megtalálva

Kicsit nehezebb volt ma az elválás a repülőtéren… mindegy, nem részletezem, elég annyit tudni a napomról, hogy finoman szólva, pocséknak indult. Elbúcsúzni a társamtól, ha csak egy kis időre, mindig fájdalmas, de ma még rosszabb volt, mint máskor. read more »